Thought 24

Yo! Hoodie from big bro.

 
My Christmas miracle
I´ve spent Christmas at mom´s, met all my family here. Relaxing time! So wonderful to enjoy the atmosphere in here. But if you´ve wished me peaceful holiday time you get disappointed now because my cats have wrestled under the Christmas tree, and it almost fell down because of eager dog.
The fresh tree smells nicely in the corner of living room. It´s decorated by pretty old fashion style so it looks familiar to me. There´s still two gifts under the sprigs, guess including chocolate.
My stomach is so full of tradional casserole foods and sweets, so it feels like don´t need to eat for a week. I have to say it´s weird that no one mentioned my eating habits; they didn´t joke about me eating ham as much they do. So that´s my "Christmas miracle" :D
Oh and I got some gifts that made me very happy: a small and cute piggy bank, heart magnet, and a board that says "Good luck for the new home" by J and H´s handwriting.

Here´s a tip for you if your cats tend to bite plants inside.

Thought 23

Hello lovely people. You might think what to give me for a housewarming gift ;)
At the moment I´m still in Oulainen, surfing on mulletoi.com. And here´s one thing I´d like to get, "poetry on fridge door":
http://www.mulletoi.com/shop/etusivu/prod__87601_jaakaappirunous
One night left here, but I haven´t really thought about it because it´s been so much to do. Even tomorrow morning I have to go to work before meeting my family.

Last night I went to sleep about at 3 A.M. because watching some interesting videos on Youtube. They were young people´s stories about how they have "came out". You know, rainbow stuff. So these youngsters have had tough times with confusing questions in their head and had wanted to share experiences.
I came out three years ago. It´s still exciting, kind of. Every time with new friend I think "To tell or not to tell?". It doesn´t really matter but if I mention it feels more relaxed.

Pics from weheartit.com

Thoughts 21 and 22

My favourite tv-shows

LA Ink / Pic: tvlistings.zap2it.com

Friends / Pic: frendit.org

Putous / Pic: mtv3.fi

The couch
J&H got my couch and kitchen table out of this apartment. There´s no place for them in my new home and I´m going to buy new things in there.
We heard noise coming inside of the couch when turning it. So J broke the cloth and (because it has been in day-care-center) we saw legos and other stuff inside of it. Hoped something exciting...too bad.

I´d like to change the bed and computer table, too. It´s the idea about choosing myself, no so much second-hand anymore. Show me the way to Ikea?

White inside, white outside.

Thought 20

It hurts
I fell down on stairs when carrying a big garbage bag. Complaining or not in the staircase where echos? Complaining, because it hurts and must get up carefully. So walking is a bit painful. Ice gel would be good.

Pic: weheartit.com

Thoughts 18 and 19

Packing on tuesday

Plastic bags are not ecological but easier to carry.


The teddy roast

Thought 17

White wonder
Waking up in this wonderland
white as the ghosts
I used to fear in my childhood

Makes me wonder
if this could be good for me
Then I realise I´m not alone

I see shadows kissing on the snow
It´s the poetic scene
from a silent movie
devoted to me today

- 7.2.2010

 

Thought 16

Names

I saw one article in Internet that tells about some new names people have given their children:
http://www.mtv3.fi/uutiset/kotimaa.shtml/lejondotter-uncas-ja-merikarhu---naita-nimia-ei-saanut-antaa-lapselle/2012/08/1591873
Well, the Finns have been very imaginative. The board that has the authority to make desicions within names has supported (for example) the names Eveliia, Rosabella and Vivana because "they are very beautiful". Some examples of boys´ names would be Hekku, Temppu and Uljas Urhea Mikonpoika. The board thinks these names sounds real names, not nicknames.

When taking a look towards the population register, we can see the most popular names in the year 2012:
http://verkkopalvelu.vrk.fi/Nimipalvelu/nimipalvelu_etunimitop.asp?vuosi=13&L=1
It shows my name is on the 3th position. Also Sofia and Maria are keeping their places. Guess they never get old. We can say the same about Juhani, Johannes and Mikael.

Thought 15

Things in my current home

Thought 14

Waiting for Christmas

Last Christmas mom put one ornament so down that the cats could play with it.

Thought 13

Oulainen today

Did you know I don´t like winter? There´s no sense in this snowsquall.

Something delightful: hot chocolate with real chocolate that reminds me of childhood.

Thought 12

Happy 12.12.12!

Here´s a song that played in my head today:

Thought of the day part 11

My favourite pic taken in summer 2012

- In Oulu -

Thought of the day part 10

The dream I never forget
I was living high scool times when I start to saw scary and distressing dreams about rooms.
At many nights in a row I saw myself in a big house sneaking in a room after room. I was holding a flashlight in my hand because all the houses were dark. Every time I opened the door just as much as I could see that there´s nothing afraid of. No people or other figures, just ordinary furnitures and stuff.
In some of these dreams I was in a place familiar from childhood. They were just the same but didn´t comfort me at all.

Suddenly I was standing on the outside door of a big house. It was so confusing, took time to think what is the explanation for this twist.
But what happened in the last episode of this chain of dreams? I was taking a look at the house next to the mailbox. I realised I left the house!

Never saw these dreams again. Guess I was looking for something in my life, didn´t know what for sure.
Of course I checked the word "house" but it meant something positive. No fear or losing control of something. So it´s a mystery to me, still. But still I don´t like too much space around me, for example living in a two-room flat felt uncomfortable just by myself.

Thought of the day part 9

The test
I´m very curious when it comes to different kind of tests. The most interesting of them tell about personality.

I found one from https://www.ireflect.info/user_session/new
You can sign in with your LinkedIn or Facebook account (for free).

My result says I´m romantic. I´ve thought that word is not for me but I understand the explanation. One line from it goes: "One of your greatest assets is your ability to live in harmony with other people and the environment. You pay attention to the way people are treated, and you react to their needs."

So there´s one suggestion for your activity today. No boring moments on Sunday!

Thought of the day part 7 and 8

7.12. Friday flu = time to watch sweet dreams

8.12. Saturday surfing

by Jarkko Vehniäinen

Comics and caricatures: www.jarkkovehniainen.fi

Thought of the day part 6

HIM
All my friends know that the number one band for me is HIM. Because they have just published a new compilation album (called XX - Two decades of love metal) I wanted to show pictures taken in my very first HIM gig, in 2008 in Ankkarock. I was so excited that I started to cry when seeing Ville. It was embarrassing but couldn´t help it.

My friend had bought a henna tattoo for me. It wasn´t dry yet so it started to spill on my wrist. Some years later I was sitting on a bench with a tattoo needle in my hand and a real heartagram tattoo got it´s first lines. My big brother finished it by coloring. Do you think it´s crazy to take fan tattoos? Maybe it is, but it´s one of extempore things in my life.

What´s your favourite song by HIM?

Pics by AK

Thought of the day part 5

Friends
One big question in my mind at the moment is what kind of people I´m going to meet in the future. And who will be my new friends in my "new life"? What would be the things they want to hang out with me?
One online friend of mine said: "It must be sunny day when we meet." It made me smile and look forward to get to know her better. It´s so nice when someone tells this kind of things out loud.

Thought of the day part 4

Tuesday´s trouble
I was so freezing when waking up that the teeth were clanking. Then I was late from work because of warming shower. So the proper winter is here... and Santa Claus may soon bring me surprises, right?

Thought of the day parts 1, 2 and 3

Saturday 1.12.
I enjoy trains. It´s so cool to travel by myself after finding confidence.

Sunday 2.12.
Uh..where am I? Yep, waking up in another strange place in Espoo with my friend. It´s been such an adventure to get to know her and her friends. This time we were at house warming party. I swear I didn´t drink much but it´s absolutely unpossible to do nothing but wait the Big Brother final this evening.
Hey now I remember the answer: we are in Karalahti.

Monday 3.12.
No way, I did it! What amazing feeling holding the new rental contract. Many phone calls to loved ones and walking in Kaisaniemi just thinking what´s happening right now.