What do I believe in?

"Oletko vielä entisesi, Roi?"
Jonna Tervomaa - Roi


There was a postcrosser who wanted me to answer the question "What/whom do you believe in?" There was a couple things that came to my mind and thought which would be the most interesting topic to tell about.
I chose good will. I believe in people´s good will because my somewhat hippie mind says that we need to look after each other. I don´t know if anybody gets this, but I try to explain. It doesn´t mean we should be more curious or do something for somebody without asking, but even knowing somebody we should be able to ask what´s the time without getting bad look. It´s about small things. What about asking something in general. "Can I borrow your screwdriver because I don´t own one?" "Could you please drive me home when you´re going, too?" Anyway, why should it be so difficult to give a helping hand when it doesn´t take anything from you? No money or energy get lost.

It´s been a year I broke up with my girlfriend. After the most hurting time I sent her a message and asked how is she doing. This may sound odd and not all behave like this, but my reason was I honestly wanted to know. She sent me a dvd I had forgot her place, said that wanted to give it back because it´s my favourite movie. So she didn´t wrote any message so I asked about it and were right about the sender.
We weren´t friends until yesterday. I asked if it would be possible. We didn´t know each other very well when started the relationship, so I thought why not to get to know better now. I don´t want to avoid anybody like "I can´t go there because they´re in there" (or be up to this person). I just want that everybody are happy. If she would had said "No, I don´t see us as friends" it would had been okay to me.
Respecting other people and their choices, it´s so much but you should get it back, too.

So this is my story about good will. I don´t believe in God or any "bigger power" that controls us. I believe in human.

For those who don´t know where to stay

I have written poems about being lost in some way and finding the own place to call home. Or something like that. I realised there´s already several of them and wanted to collect them here. People want to hear songs about their current mood so maybe this texts can help someone even a bit as well.
(Btw, you can always correct my English. Don´t want to write willy nilly.)

Dragons will survive 

Mist

Tulenpalava 

Kuumailmapallo

"The best way is to go day by day"

"Onko tuo muka jotain elämää?"
Heli Kajo - Annankadun kulmassa

I do have long walks around my hometown,
appreciate my unfinished poems and try to fix them,
play with the cats so would get some sleep at night,
own a sketch book and some black marker pens
and bougth fluffy little rug to the bathroom from buy/sell/change,

but still don´t get anything done.

Waiking up at 5.30 A.M. and going to work. And then what? Something small but anything to mention. What makes me disappointed the most is that I have felt several years that I´m not so artistic. It always sounds very cool when someone says they are. Html, water colors, drawing with pencil, singing, guitar playing. At least I try to write and like English as well as my mother tongue. Yes, writing is my skill but I would like to be known as "good at (something everybody admires)".
So I care too much about other people´s opinions and forget myself?

Let´s think someone tells about a great vocation. I get jealous. Why? Because I was just thinking about future instead of doing something for it? Well, I was earning money and that´s important. I was concentrating on my hobbies (so I know how to make myself happy at the moment). And did you know, that I´m pretty sure I´d be a bit scared on a plane, not to mention ships.

Well, let´s go day by day, found it the best way.

To do list

So, I (finally) decided to start writing in English. It´s cool to practice the language now that I´m not at school.

To do list:

* Get the Zooplus package from the post office
* My brother´s and his fiancé´s housewarming party on Saturday
* So buy a present to J and H (Oh imagination, where are you?)
* Jukka Poika´s gig in a bar on weekend
* Go to the dentist
* Keep on taking long walks and enjoy it
* Buy new towels and bedsheets

It makes me happy when...

"Can I take ya, take ya higher" 
Angus & Julia Stone - Big jet plane

...my cats are feeling fine (and not jumping onto walls).

...I remember something I loved as a child (and still be able to do something about/with it).

...there´s a t-shirt of one of my favourite bands in the closet.

...there´s something AMAZING waiting for me!!